I didn't want to put this in any of the other threads so I'm making a new one.

I think all of you know I'm a writer or at least that I'm good at it. I haven't really written much of anything for a long time now. Every now and then I get a spark and suddenly something just flows right out of me. Well, I just had one of those sparks and this is what came from it.

NOTE: It's not finished yet.

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Everybody walks around With a smile on their face But it never quite reaches their eyes And I know it’s only a façade To mask the pain they’ve locked away Somewhere deep inside It’s a constant battle to survive Then again Maybe it’s just me Hoping I’m not the only one Playing a game of make believe Pretending everything is alright When it’s really not Cause every time I look in the mirror All I see are my silent tears Staring back at me

So what does everyone think?

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I am in AWE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Really Sky?

Thanks so much!

Really...................it is that good. It kind of touched home for me.

It is both beautiful and sad Teddy. Please put more of your writing in here. We would love to read it!

Sky

Like I said I'm not really sure where that came from. I was just standing in the bathroom and it came out. It's kind of strange because I've wanted to write something like that for a long time now.

Most of my writing draws from personal feelings. I wrote a lot right out of high school in my first three years of college. Much of it is very dark and sad. So needless to say I'm not very comfortable sharing any of it. I've looked back and read some of my stuff over and I just hate it. I think it's horrible. But maybe I can find something I wrote to share that I feel is somewhat decent.

Thanks much to both of you.

Chorus to a song/poem I wrote back in Nov 2002.

Quote:

I’m broken, unbroken I have lost all hope Have a feeling my faith Will never be restored This pain will not subside The hurt is edged inside I’m broken, unbroken Never going to find a way back It’s going to be like this always Too many tears shed Not enough happiness Want to be me again I’m broken, unbroken

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From January 2003 (This one I have a love and hate relationship with.)

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Walking around Going from town to town Looking for something Or someone to help you out But no one is kind enough They just push you away Pretend you aren’t there Leaving you out in the cold Leaving you out in the dust [Chorus] Burned That’s what you are You can’t go on Cause you’ve given up Burned It’s hard for you to move You lost your steam Gone is your energy You’re burned so very Burned You’ve been here And you’ve been there Gone everywhere Seen so many things Met so many people But you can’t continue This foolish charade This childish game [Chorus] Oh you’re on a long and winding road Been on it for quite a while But it’s time to take a rest Cause you’re tired And got to find yourself again, hmmm [Chorus]

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Wow, again! You are very talented!

Thanks so much Sky. That really means a lot!

I haven't really shared much of this with anyone. It's all been sort of locked away. Since all of you are so encouraging I figure why not!

As you might notice a lot of it has very underlining similarities. All about the same thing just said in different ways.

Another little snippet. From April 2003.

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I’m so devastated, completely frustrated And very frightened I need someone to help me Yeah, my heart is breaking I’m slowly falling, I feel like screaming But nobody is hearing me, I’m pleading Can’t you see I’m lost? This girl is confused And she don’t know what to do Oh no, no I’m devastated

That has to be one of my faves.

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Ugh now that you've got me started I can't stop. I'm becoming a post hog. I swear this will be the last one for a bit. Besides I think you'll need a break after this particular piece. It's very personal, very deep. It'll probably give you chills. I never talk about what this song has to do with and the few times I've had with close friends it was hard enough. You'll understand what I mean. It's kind of on the same lines of Pink's song "Family Portrait". Just maybe not as good. I don't know you be the judge.

June 2003

Quote:

Night after night I wake up in a cold sweat Trembling, cause I’m so afraid The visions in my head They won’t go away They’re so determined to stay [Chorus] Haunted by what’s happened in the past So unsure that anything will last And every time someone gets to close I tend to always pull back Yeah it’s a never-ending nightmare And I wish I didn’t care Oh am I always gonna be so scared? It began when I was a child So young, naïve and fragile Too much yelling, too much fighting It was something I should have never heard Now I’m stuck with it forever more [Chorus] Haunted by what’s happened in the past So unsure that anything will last And every time someone gets to close I tend to always pull back Yeah it’s a never-ending nightmare And I wish I didn’t care Oh am I always gonna be so scared? Every night in my dreams I’m haunted by old memories They come and go as they please Do all they can do to put me in misery Yeah, yeah Haunted by the images in my mind All I wanna do is run away and hide So many times, over and over I’ve tried But in the end I always cry [Chorus] Haunted by what’s happened in the past So unsure that anything will last And every time someone gets to close I tend to always pull back Yeah it’s a never-ending nightmare And I wish I didn’t care Oh am I always gonna be so scared? I’m haunted I’m damaged Wish I could find some peace of mind [Chorus] Haunted by what’s happened in the past So unsure that anything will last And every time someone gets to close I tend to always pull back Yeah it’s a never-ending nightmare And I wish I didn’t care Oh am I always gonna be so scared?

*chews on fingers*

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Did I scare everyone away? Nobody has said anything.



Anyhow, found another snippet I wanted to share. This is on the depressing side just so you know...

February 2004

Quote:

Lying awake trembling all over Hiding away sat in a corner With my head buried in my knees As I’m rapidly falling I’ve got nowhere to go I finally hit rock bottom And there’s nobody that knows The world’s closing in on me I can barely breathe It’s truly suffocating Everything I had has been taken from me I have nothing left I’m disappearing There’s no use in fighting it cause I’m Lifeless

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You didn't scare me away. Some are sad but so well written..............

Yay you're still reading! I thought I lost you. lol

Hmmm, yes many of them are sad. Sorry about that. I promise there's some happy ones!

I wasn't going to post this next one cause well it's weird since you know I've never felt this way about anyone before. So this is NOT off personal experiences or feelings.

Quote:

In the flicker of candlelight Your skin glows and your eyes shine As you look at me I can feel the heat Deep within begin to rise Sending shivers down my spine I don’t know how it’s possible but even though I’m all the way across the room from you I can feel the warmth radiate off of you I’ll love you freely and so completely There are no limits nothing is forbidden And if you don’t know it now You’ll feel it in the way we kiss Creating an unforgettable bliss There’s nothing to stop us or this love of ours With abandon

Yeah....there you go.

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That's wonderful...........

You'll meet that special someone.............sometime.